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img_0014-1Hello people I am back at blogging (again) due to popular demand hahaha

I am not sure why I am in a fabulous mood. Perhaps it’s this song I’m listening, or the nice songs I found in the afternoon, or because I am writing this, or all 🙂

One Saturday afternoon I dug my old entries and remember that I used to whine a lot, felt empty all the time and I always turned everything into words. It felt so different as if that girl was a person other than me. And I found her kind of funny and cute.

I am not a person who feels the need to record everything down. Because being a minimalist is my ambition inside out.

But I guess I am writing these for people who would love to understand me

And for the older and wiser woman to remember herself.

〜 My Valentine / Jung Yup / Merry Go Round


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小天使

親愛的小寶貝離開也快一個月了,這個月感覺過得非常慢。
下班回家時經過寵物醫院總是覺得他還在那裏等我接他。
埋葬他的那天現在變得像一場夢,好像發生過又很不真實,
因爲這麽可愛的孩子怎麽忽然就離開了我們,到現在還是難以接受。

農曆新年快到了,晚上開始有放烟花的聲音,是他最害怕的。
或許離開對他唯一的好處就是不會再被烟花困擾了吧。

前幾天夢見你像平日的樣子… 還有我心裏一直有你,所以覺得你從來沒有離開過,雖然再也看不到你髒髒蓬蓬的屁股還有你亂吃東西的樣子。

百合花小姐快結婚了,她今天說當我的狗去世,看見我哭的時候她也快哭出來了。
我們的小天使真的教會了我很多事情,包括要相信別人的真心是善良的。

每天都非常想念你,希望你在天國有吃不完的好東西還有可愛的天使陪著你。
新年快樂親愛的米奇 ❤

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在 Pixiv 找到的,覺得很像米奇,畫家叫ここの。


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Wrap-up 2015

2015 is a dream-came-true year!
I got rid of the cyst near my left eye, which had worried me and my family since I was born.
And we went to Sungai Lembing, it’s really a beautiful place.

Then I went to Japan in April!!! Everything was so yummy there ❤
After being jobless for 10 months, I finally got a job I like in a company I always think it’s super cool! I’m really lucky 🙂

With salary I bought Z5 which was a love at first sight ❤
Took up so much of my salary but I really really love you Bond!

My dear Deo broke down and I repaired it and it broke down again.. So I guess I really should let it go.. And bought Hayden! I learnt that I shouldn’t spend so much at things when I’m young, should instead save up for travelling.

I made a pair of glasses.

I bought the watch I always loved on 31st December 2015 ❤

So much of good things happened in 2015! Looking forward to an even better year 🙂


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What’s that single thing that you regret not doing?
I wished we had a picture together.

♫ 寂しくて少し切ない時 / 日常BGM&ラジオ番組 / 野見祐二


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星期六的小回顧

昨晚看完了大學時期寫的部落格,那應該只是一半,因為另一半被刪完了。年輕的我總是在刪東西,現在已經不能再想當時應不應該了,不要逼死自己,消失的就讓它走吧,不記得就算了。其實現在的自己還是有刪東西的衝動,或許這是一種病吧!一邊讀一邊發現自己更了解自己了一些,我覺得我應該有成長了一些,但以前那個什麼都喜歡寫成文字的女孩子其實還蠻精彩的,現在只是什麼都收在心裡,連沒人看的部落格也不想寫。生活和眼光就是這麼壓抑著我們,每當有人不顧世俗地表現自己,我都覺得很不錯,你過得很不錯,你知道你是對的,你有自信。

雖然腦袋常常覺得未來那個人不會看中文所以盡量寫英文,但有些事情還是不需要讓他知道的吧 (笑
我相信他不會因此而感到不安,因為我也不需要了解他的所有,我只要好好記得他想要我知道的就好了。人都需要一些空間和一些小小的神秘感,而持續的小發現也是生活的精彩。

幾年前的我似乎把很多事情都抓得很緊,很多不能放下、不能忘掉的事情。我想那是自然的吧,我現在也是一點一點地在放開,很多事情都不再糾結了,但也有新的事情可以糾結、可以讓我睡不著。以前倒是很少失眠,只是跟男朋友吵架時會睡不著,第二天醒來沒有收到他的信息就會更生氣。我就是這樣的可怕的女朋友。我不知道我現在還會不會狂發飆,但至少我知道我必須珍惜下一個人,不想再傷害別人。男孩子看起來沒什麼,心其實也很脆弱,只是不想承認。

我發現自己喜歡彩虹樂團已經八年了。覺得很不可思議,因為我很善變,感覺不可能這麼專一,卻一直喜歡了這麼多年。他們陪我度過了很多日子和很多階段,身邊來了也走了很多人。我一直沒有辦法對一件事釋懷,但我找不到安慰自己的方法,或許世界上根本沒有這把鑰匙。嗯我原本寫了很多心裡話卻因為那個對象看了或許會難過所以刪了。還是不要傷害別人比較好。

之前因為新朋友所以重新發現了 ELLEGARDEN. 除了歌很不錯,奇妙的主唱大人細美武士唱 live 時竟然都滿臉笑容! 我我我我我

我根本萬箭穿心啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~

因為我很喜歡開朗的男孩子 (羞
他邊唱邊笑,笑容是發自內心的,看起來真的很開心,看了心情變得很好
後來發現他身後的鼓手也是一整個笑容!鼓手不是都看起來很恨鼓、都在拼命洩憤的嗎?!你怎麼這麼開心!:3
他們每次演出都穿得很簡單,但每首歌都很紮實,很有感染力。鼓很搭也很棒,貝斯應該是很好吧,吉他很厲害,主唱的美國口音也很酷!恩就算你窮你不高你不帥我還是要嫁給你,因為真的很喜歡你的氛圍!
音樂本身就是最重要的,其他都是花邊。
很遺憾這個樂團在2008年已經暫停了,主唱也有了自己的新樂團。很多人都希望他們復活,我也很希望!想聽更多更多歌,想要期待未來的每一張專輯,還想要看一次 live!現場看主唱大人微笑我會心臟負荷不來吧!但我真的很喜歡他邊唱邊笑 ❤

誠にありがとうございました、エルレ!

♫ 高架線 / ELEVEN FIRE CRACKERS / ELLEGARDEN


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The Little Red Dragon in Me

Maybe just a few persons in this world remember red dragon. Yeah it has no name. It’s sort of an imaginary character lived in my brain when I was going through a very very harsh storm in life few years ago.
Even now, I still think it’s a very hard time and I have no confidence if I can do it if it happens now.
It changed me a lot inside. You know, I always think one’s life is too boring without a major heartbreak 😉

Maybe 2 years ago I did the Myers–Briggs Type Indicator test and I got “INFJ”.
I cried knowing that INFJs were only about 1% of the population. I had been feeling terribly lonely.
It’s been hard to mix in with people and relationships were crappy.
Then I tried to tell myself that it’s okay, I’m very special.

I took the test again half an hour earlier and I was really thrilled to know that I’ve changed!
I’m no longer that lonely INFJ, I am an INFP now!
It takes up 4% of the population 😉 That’s a great improvement lol hehehe
Maybe I could relate to more people now, maybe we’re sharing a lot more in common now, I’m kind of glad 🙂

I’m not sure how to put it in words. I really love RD, I always hope my brain could continue the story.
But for a lot of times I think it really just appeared in my worst days to stabilize my mood swings, or just to keep me occupied for a couple of hours. Yes, life was really full of shit that I could not handle. It’s like getting hit by a high speed train and flew halfway through the globe. Funny enough, though I had never seen my purpose of life, and as much as I loved how my friend once said “tomorrow is always a good day to die”, I did not think of killing myself at all, not a tiny bit, not a millisecond. It’s totally not a reason to die. I just thought I was going to rot in my hostel room.

I only want to talk about my personality test and my beloved RD today.


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I couldn’t think of an interesting caption for this picture. I couldn’t write something that attracts a lot of Likes.
Man, why do I care about those Likes, right? I wasn’t this kind of person. If I really cared about how people think of me, I wouldn’t had done a lot of things and I would have done a lot of other things too. The chance has passed so let’s give up on being a popular girl.

One day I saw this book in a local bookstore and I was quite surprised. Out of surprise I bought an English book which I usually don’t. It’s probably one of the best I’ve ever read. I am not sure about you but I think my life would be wasted if I hadn’t read this. I cried so long while finishing the last pages.

Because I was really into this book, I really wanted to get the Korean version when I was in Korea. But I had only learnt the language for three days when we went to Shinsegae Busan. I was so new I couldn’t really read hangul lol. And that’s what made it a beautiful memory. The bookstore was big but thankfully they sort books on alphabetical order (I think. I’m not sure because it’s been more than a year and I’m old I forgot things). I walked between shelves, looking for my favorite book, in a language I didn’t understand. Maybe I was lucky, it didn’t take too long before I found it. I remember how glad I was when I finally saw it. “Finally once without disappointment”. And it’s so nicely made. I love you you made me happy.

Korean was hard, a year has passed, I still can’t read it.

Last month I went to its hometown, Japan. But I forgot to buy it. Man I’m old.

♫ 美影意志 / UVERworld / AwakEVE


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Wishlist

Yes tomorrow is my birthday! Yay! It’s time to update my wishlist so whoever wants to get me a present for my birthday has a guideline! But nobody reads this blog OMG I’m just writing this to encourage myself.

What should top my wishlist? I have no idea yet. Maybe a Gundam, I always wanted a PG but I am kind of stingy on Gundams because they’re just plastics hahaha

Not one but two PGs now because Bandai made one for Unicorn.

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If you think PG is waaaaaaaaaay out of your range, actually I like MG too 😉

And this, since 2011 I had been talking about how much I like this Gundam that I will never buy.

In future when I finally can’t buy it anymore I will say

“あのガンダムずっと好きだったよ… ”

( ˘ ³˘) ❤

I used to have a long list of about 10 items but I can’t think of anything else now. I guess I am pretty much contented with my life now. Except the fact that I haven’t found a job >_<

So

Happy Birthday to myself!

I wish myself a happy year ahead, wish somebody likes me back, wish all my loved ones and me healthy and happy, and with my birthday power I bless anyone who reads this blog entry anytime, anywhere. May your wishes come true ^^

♫ ハローグッバイ / YUKI / Joy


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福岡第十天: 再見福岡

時間飛得太快了吧!一下子就要跟福岡說 bye bye 了 T_T

沒吃早餐就出門了,搭JR 到福岡空港。

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姪濱再見 ;_;

Check in 行李的時候佳佳姐姐幫忙聽聽空服員說什麼,然後散場的擁抱 T_T

我很捨不得她,很謝謝她這十天的照顧和她非常有趣的個性,還有精彩的故事們!

她買了一個明太子飯糰給我,我吃在嘴裡淚流滿心 T_T

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福岡再見 ;_;

班機好像延遲了半小時,到成田機場已經四點多了。

趕快趕去 Terminal 2,腳很酸。

機場的錢幣兌換機好先進,我換了SGD50。

趕緊辦理 check in 然後去寄信 ^^ 其實我幾天前在天神買了一張道謝卡給佳佳姐姐,給她一個小小的驚喜
還有寄給自己的明信片,上面寫了一些破日語 :3

在飛機場買了一些土產和一個だるまさん~ 登機門是98號,成田機場有九十九個登機門啊

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再見東京

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飛機餐,之後空服員還加了一個 Haagen-Dazs 的雪糕,把我的心情變好了一些 :9

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配日語的 Baymax,小孩的電影比較淺白所以聽得懂 ^^ 講日語的 Baymax 真的很可愛

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我已經離日本這麼遠了嗎…

到樟宜機場已經凌晨了,搭德士到姐姐家借住一晚,早上搭巴士回 City Square!
24公斤的行李一定練了我不少肌肉 >:D


後記

日本之行獲益良多。找到了自己,明白和學會了很多事情。

這世界上自己做得到的事情其實很多,做不到的事情只要努力也可以辦到。

遇到不熟悉的事情時 我總是相信別人做得到的話我肯定也可以,就這樣都做到了,然後成長了一些。

日語只聽得懂卻說不出真是悔し!回來要再接再厲地學習!

佳佳姐姐說,ないことはないです!沒有做不到的事!(但是做錯了要自己負責 XD)

老師說 『人生は山あり、谷あり』,人生一定有巔峰 有得意時 也有低谷。

回來了要好好迎接人生的苦澀跟挑戰 哈哈哈哈 加油吧!

お世話になりました!そして、ありがとう!
またね日本 ❤

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福岡第九天: 博多、天神、ガンプラEXPO、幸福夫妻晚餐 – æœ€å¾Œä¸€å¤œ

早上九點有韓語考試所以佳佳姐姐很早就起床複習然後出門了。
我大概拖到12點吧,在家裡痛哭了一下,真的很捨不得福岡 T_T

我們約好在博多的玫瑰祭見面,之後吃好吃的うどん!

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然後到處找一蘭拉麵的快熟面~

之後到天神買很厲害的面膜,剛好遇到爵士live

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去了BIC CAMERA 佳佳姐姐買了一台Surface Pro 3
這家很厲害,可以在店內直接扣稅,不用到機場
用我的護照(8%) 加促銷(6%),總共扣了14%!
BIC CAMERA 裡有很多3C 產品和周邊,相機更是每款都能試用!
產品價錢都比較便宜,我下次要來買手機 :p

反正到了天神!就應該去看看鋼彈展對吧!

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姐說我的眼睛發光了

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展場賣的都是限量全黑的鋼彈,我們後來去了Parco 新棟的賣場,我買了一個有金粉的 XD

回家休息後到 “洗被子” 夫妻家吃晚餐!因為第一天原本約好了一起去看花他們卻在家裡洗被子 XD

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小媳婦很厲害,料理很好吃

在他們家貼了SP3貼膜,之後就回家囖~

回家整理好行李再哭!福岡我們一定要再見 T_T